if only if

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i don't know what's actually happen today... with all my mind.
it started from my journey to the new knowledge, filling full my emptiness.
can you imagine how do i do to drive my body, mind, and relation in this null day?
i mean, okay, i'm not perfect.
and you right! it's a poetry. full of metaphor...

i'm empty...
and lose for someone, for god.
i hate this... be in sorrow but okay... sorry, i'm not good today....
do you know... what i'm thinking... every times, every seconds?
of course you will not know. You are not a god.
so do i...
i'm not perfect
my friends believe that, my parents know that, and you may too...
but, as a boy, i do love you, besides i love my self.
i can't talk to much, because i'm different.
and these problems seem terrible and i have to overcome it soon
can you help me?
you even don't know... it should to be.
so i decided to go to the movie theater, and watching alone

so surprised, i saw Mr. proper with his penguins.
i love it much, so sorry to made you waiting, but...
i know it's bad, yup i know... what about my own side?
i'll be worsen if i just let my self to turn off the light of my life,
the light of my mind, the light of love.

we braver over time...
human to humanity,
because love is universal,

in night, in the rain, i thought...
if i fail you, can you fail me,
if you fail me, can i fail myself...
if i fail myself, now what?

i'm weird,
so... have a nice day... ^)^
we will see others day passed, till the time comes

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