don't know a thing

Every time i look at myself, a desperate life
so lying,
i don't know what i have done to myself.
every time i go home, at street, alone, i so disappointed.
"why i'm not feeling good?"
i always waiting u for an indistinctness
i always be the only wrong guy
i'm doing all the things for nothing,
i just... spoil an abstract relation
i'm a waiter, a watch guy, a servant, no more
i don't know why i have all of these thoughts, it just...
what i'm thinking of for days past

i'm trying to enjoy but can't
i'm trying to be patient as i can, but...
i just can't resist it all the time,
u sometimes make me so sad
i'll gave u everything but...
my heart getting freeze time and time

i don't understand what i'm feeling for
love sometimes hurt instead.

i'll understand u every seconds in my life
i'll keep the love till i find all things back
and i'll try to be a good person
u doing a thing good sometimes but,
please... there is a side in my heart that...
hate ur act sometimes,
a reasonable hates,
u know i'm suffering
i'm feeling so stupid,
lost in my own way

so... i hope u understand
i'm just an ordinary guy
sorry for hurting u